What’s Next?

Yesterday after getting the beta-hCG result, my headache went into full blast. Torture to the MAX! (Typically, I just sleep a headache off, but this one needed tylenol!)

Could it be hormones crashing? Or perhaps thermal cycling going in and out of the car into the heat and then into the airconditioned stores? Or perhaps 4 hours without food? Anyhow, it made me indulge in some self-pity…

I was thinking I was tired of trying
…of having to take the injection shots
…of having to ride the stirrups and probed
…of having to induce Miss Flo with provera
…of having to look up the clock to see if it is time to take a BBT, to take the levothyroxin, to take the shots, to take the prenatal vitamins
…of wondering will I ovulate? will we get pregnant this time? if I am pregnant? are these pregnancy symptoms?

Many questions. No answers. I’m tired.

Well …the wonders of rest and sleep is that it can give you back perspective. DH woke me up when he got home from work and I told him of the results. Cuddle. Comfort. Wow. What a great husband I have. Thank you, Lord!

DH saw the book on our bed - “When the Cradle Is Empty“. And he read to me the following excerpt from the When Is It Time To Move On chapter:

Don’t make a hasty decision. Infertility testing and treatment involve a long, intensive, expensive process that’s bound to produce anxiety and frustration. Understanding this and preparing yourselves for it can help you avoid the “early dropout syndrome”. If you quit before you’ve really made an honest and thorough attempt to achieve a successful pregnancy, the two of you may regret it for the rest of your lives. (Emphasis is mine.)

That made me realize that this is “just” our first IUI and that there are many women who’ve had multiple IUIs and even moved on to IVF. I could not say with all honesty that we’ve had a “thorough” attempt already. So that encouraged me.

Meanwhile prior to the actual IUI, DH and I discussed a bit on Plan B. I suggested that we do Follistim cycle #3 with BD, instead of IUI. He said though that he’d rather have another IUI since the probability is supposedly higher. I thought that was mighty brave of him considering he had some technical difficulty in herding the boys!

Today, we’re not sure if that is the best next thing to do.

Anyway, we will meet with DrH when Miss Flo arrives to do baseline and at the same time discuss our next steps. Sounds like it is either another IUI or move on to IVF. I will have to do some additional research on the probabilities on either options.

The challenge with these probability information is that there is very litle IUI data that is published. But will make do with what is available and will surely share what I learn from them.

Meanwhile, maybe some of you can share what your thoughts were in making a decision on whether to try another IUI or to go forward with IVF. Appreciate it much!!!

Waiting for Ms Flo
Maybe I should get a job… instead of blogging my thoughts away!