Ovulation Day (Theoretically…)
Well, good morning, ICLW ladies!
Today is my theoretical ovulation day. Well, I am not ovulating - BBT is steady and CM is is not egg-whitey. I was just hoping that maybe while we are on a break, my body would somehow work “normally” and we would miraculously conceive naturally. There’s no price for dreaming, right?
Anyway, welcome to my blog! This is my second time to be with you all. Make yourselves comfortable and roam around.
Meanwhile, I wanted to write something witty or to show something funny for you gals today. (You who have been reading my blog know I neither witty nor funny, so that would be a stretch!) Anyway, I settled to post this inspiring video for all of us:
A lot of us have been disappointed a couple of times already - some more times than the others, but deeply disappointed nevertheless. I know, I have. And at times, I don’t want to feel the disappointment and pain that I steel myself to numbness. But my God is merciful, gracious, kind and loving and despite my stiff-neck, independence and stubbornness, He welcomes me with open arms and comforts me to peace.
Sometimes, I do feel hopeless. I am reminded though that my God is the creator of heaven and earth and to him nothing is impossible. So for as long as I am alive in this earth, I have hope for a child of my own. That’s what keeps me going in this journey to fertility.
The key thing that encouraged me was what God showed the husband:
“Keep focused on me and just as Peter walked on the water, you’d be able to go over your circumstance. Look at me and I will get you through the storm.”
May this be my prayer - eyes on the Lord and He will take care of me!
Another thing I liked was the verse that the wife mentioned: Psalm 113:9 -
“He settles the barren woman in her home as a happy mother of children.”
We all know the statistics - not all of us are going to be a mother of our own flesh and blood. Yet, I continue to hope that this promise be given to my home. Though not as I will, but as God wills.
How about you? Are you losing hope? What keeps you going?
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oh what a beautiful verse. I memorized and repeated in my head my whole last cycle 1 Samuel 1:11, Hannahs prayer for a child, and that might not be the only reason but I am PG now! I really just handed this last cycle over to God, it was so hard though!
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I try not to give up hope, but some days it gets the better half of me.
As I’ve said before, I think faith and hope are the hardest things to hold onto while dealing with infertility. I give kudos to anyone who can get to the other side with their faith and hope intact.
Wow, I almost did not watch that video because I have been so angry and my faith is wavering more every day. But I am glad that I watched it.
How do I keep faith and hope? It’s hard, but I just do. I can’t even explain it. Even when I feel like I have little faith or hope, I manage to cling to some of it and just believe.
ICLW
I have lost faith and hope so many times. For me there is always the day that things turn around and I am ready to start again. It is important not to loose sight that you have a whole life, not just your IF life.
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Hope and Faith are 2 of the hardest t hings to keep in perspective during the TTC period — I know that there were many times that I felt lost and betrayed — but I always knew in my heart that what He wanted would be the truth, no matter what we did about it. Believing in that and just staying as positive and hopeful as I could is really what got me through.
I also wanted to see if you had time to email about any online job opportunities — you had mentioned in a comment you left me last month or so, and right now that is something I am very interested in. thanks
Hi, here from ICLW. Good Luck on your journey!
It has taken me some time to get to this place, but I am finally at a place of complete hope and peace. I know what God has promised me and I know that He will fulfill those promises. Maybe not in my timing but in His perfect timing. I have known this throughout this entire time but I am finally at peace with His timing. I don’t get upset about the wait any longer. I’ve finally learned to give it all to God and trust in Him. It’s not an easy lesson to learn but it’s so worth all the tears, frustration and anger to finally have a peace in God and His timing and will. Hang in there. God has a lesson for each of us to learn through all the trials in life.
ICLW
My faith did waver at times during my IF journey but at no time did I really lose faith. In fact, my faith and my husband were the two main reasons I was able to fight through it.
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good luck on your journey.
ICLW
My faith has never really waived at all, but my hope seems to creep in and out. I honestly don’t know what keeps me going. Some days I think I want to just quit it all, but then I wake up the next day and know that we have to keep going.
What a beautiful and inspiring post!
My faith is what keeps me going. The only source of hope, peace, and pure joy is Jesus! There have been times I’ve been discouraged by my doctors’ words, but I know the Lord has a plan for me. I’ve cried many a tear wondering why God’s plan doesn’t seem to match mine but I have never felt abandoned by Him. Honestly, that shocks the heck out of me, but it’s true. His word promises He has a plan for us and time and again, in my life, I’ve learned His plan is superior to mine.
I read some blogs so fraught with dispair that I wonder how the authors can wake-up each morning. They have zero hope and it breaks my heart. Faith is not something we’re born with: It’s a gift given to us by a loving God. I never want to take His gifts for granted.
Being [barely] pregnant, I find myself having to rely on God in a different way and it’s just as scary. I can’t tell you how many times a day I pray Proverbs 3:5-6. In many ways my doctor (the German!) was right — there is nothing WE can do to influence anything at this point. It’s all God.
Thanks for stopping by my blog; I’ve really enjoyed reading yours. Oh, and the reason we live in Germany is my husband is in the military but we are moving to the US in a few days.
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