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Conversation with DH on Pathforwards

Written by Arpee on August 9, 2008 – 8:04 am -

Last Thurday, I was reading LifeSlurper’s blog for the first time after she left me a comment. My tears were falling silently when I came to the Stiching Up the IVF Game post.

That’s when DH arrived from work. Came into the bedroom, saw me in bed with the laptop open and asked me how I was, how my day was, etc. Then he noticed that I was crying.

I told him that DrH recommended that our next cycle be IVF, instead of IUI. That’s when the dam broke even further. Waaahhhh … I could not contain myself. So there I was a crying and sobbing mess. And my DH just hugged me.

Why God?
When I was a bit more pacified, I told him that I was asking God, “Why can’t we not conceive naturally?” “Why did that first IUI cycle not work?” “Why can’t we have another IUI cycle?” Why? Why? Why?

“Can we not conceive with ‘just’ IUI instead of IVF?” Please, please, please?

Money Matters
I also told him that I was so averse and repelled to the idea of having IVF and pay a lot of money for something that was not guaranteed and had no significant edge over the much cheaper IUI.

Will You Still Love Me?
I asked him if he will still love me even if we don’t have a baby? He said, YES! And that as children of the Lord, we are different from the world as they view and react to this situation.

He said what would comfort me deeply - “You are my baby.”

I Want a MiniMe
But I said, “I want a minime, a miniyou.”

And he said “Don’t ask from me what I am not able to give. It is the Lord who gives us a child.”

“So what do we do?”, I ask.

“That’s simple.”, he says, “We pray to God to give us wisdom and guidance to make the right decisions and do the right things.”

WOW. I can’t help but feel so blessed to have him. I just praise God for giving me a beautiful husband who loves me, comforts me and helps me keep my perspective. I can’t ask for more in a husband (aside from wiping the toilet bowl, separating his colored vs white clothes, bringing in his lunch boxes, taking the trash out - all without reminders) No, really. I’m so very glad he is whom I married.